Friday, 8 May 2015

One more time?

He told me he wears his heart on his sleeve,
I told him that my heart had been broken again.
He called me beautiful and meant it,
I called him, because I was lonely.
He made me laugh even so I didn't want to,
I made the decision to let go of the pain.
He send me flowers without a reason,
I send out that letter that I've been holding on to.
He held my hand when I was weak,
I held onto the moment and let go of the past.
He promised everything will be all-right,
I promised me to put myself first.
he asked me to be his future,
I asked myself should I risk one more time
He kissed me and
                I kissed him back!

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

Monday, 4 May 2015

A beautiful Poem of my beautiful friend

I remember the day, I met you by chance,
we hung out in the kitchen and I felt like home.
I had found a friend, someone that listened to me
and still remembered every word the next time we met!
Sometimes month would pass, life got so busy,
but whenever we saw each other again, 
it was like that first time in the kitchen
We talked, we laughed, never cried...I do that now!
If I would have known last week when I saw you for the last time,
that death will visit you before I will, 
would I have taken it for granted that you would be there tomorrow?
What if I would have known, that when we said Good Bye,
that it really was the last hug and the last kiss.
What if I would have known that it would be the last time 
we will talk about our loved ones, our hopes, our dreams,
would I have stayed a little longer, and hugged you a little closer?
Now you are in heaven, left all the worries behind,
like so many loved ones with broken hearts.
Your life was too short, you were too young to go!
I miss you, there is a void in my heart,
I lost my beautiful friend! 
But the day will come when I will meet you again,
we will hang out in heaven's kitchen
and it will be like the first time we ever met!

I love you girlfriend
R.I.P. Juanita

Saturday, 28 March 2015

Bird Eye View

Bird Eye View!

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

I just sat here dreaming,
on my window with a tea,
when I saw something gleaming,
on the branch before me!

I focused my eyes,
on the branch with the game,
that to my surprise,
was beautiful & tame!

I scrolled on my screen,
with the care of a hunter,
I blinked at the scene,
for a second or under!

Then I lifted my view,
back to the trees in the winds,
no feathers in blue,
that carry its wings?

The moral of the story,
the lesson of the dream:
if you get a glimpse of glory,
even small it might seem!

Keep your mind on above,
because in the blink of an eye,
can the moments you love,
have passed you by!

Tuesday, 3 March 2015

Good Bye!

A window opened, I received the light,
a gift was given, in the dawn of the night.
My world had shattered,
my body had ached,
while the ghost of the past,
had been holding my raft.

I stood there in silence,
not even hearing the sounds
not seeing the people,
nor the crying of the hounds.
I close my eyes,
and say my final Good Byes.

Saturday, 21 February 2015

Wednesday, 18 February 2015

I had a dream, that I went through a metamorphosis,
Somebody was  peeling off a layer that's called youth
and wrapped a worn out cape called age around me.
Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

Monday, 16 February 2015


My whole life had I searched for you, the one to make my live complete,

to take away my loneliness and brightened up my days.

You made the sun rise in my heart and gave my spirits wings.

Now I can soar above my days,and rest ashore the harbour!

And when the stormy days arrive,my vessel lacks no strength.

I look into your loving eyes and thank God for the answer!

The answer I was out to find, to my unanswered prayers.

I love you like I never loved before

Thursday, 29 May 2014

The Way of Life
by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

One day you stroll, through a meadow of light,
With your eyes wide open, full of joy and delight.
You feel as you are without worries and strife,
as you stumble along on the footpath of life.

You take a wee break, in this valley abound,
just minding the silence, like a heavenly sound.
You refresh in this moment of calmness and peace,
while you feel the kiss of a reviving breeze.

You continue your journey, but the lights disappear,
while darkness carries in a haze of fear. 
Your gaze is focused on the mountain ahead,
and your self is whispering to give up instead.

You lift  up your head, take a step at the time,
with hope in your heart, to the top you'll climb.
You don't look back, leave the worries behind,
with love in your heart and hope in your mind.

Every journey you take will have shadows and gloom,
but after the rain, the flowers will bloom.
Enjoy every step on life's changing way,
and treasure the love you'll find every day!

Tuesday, 29 April 2014

When the road is calling his name

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

You still can taste that last burning kiss,
when your heart hurt so softly,
by the touch of his lips.
When you looked in his eyes,
full of sadness and hope,
and he touched your heart
in the most mysterious way.
When you waved Good Bye,
with tears in your eyes,
when he told you he loves you
while holding your hand.
When you knew that those miles
aren't light years away.
What the distance had taught you,
was that love doesn't leave,
on highway up North,
or on a barge going East.
All the roads that he'll travel,
all the miles he'll put on,
he'll always come back
to his heart and his home.

Tuesday, 18 February 2014


by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

When a heart is hurt, everything changes
the world you loved suddenly disappears,
all that's left is the shell of another new day,
into which you stumble with no direction.

When hurt holds you hostage and fear is your friend,
when the raging wind of change blows into your face
and fury burns like raging fire in the depth of your soul,
when life lost it's fragrance like the withered rose in the sun.

When memories kiss you onto your cheek at night,
and you pray to God to be strong one more time,
when the dawn of the day is light years away,
and darkness hovers over you like a ghost of the past.

That's when you need to search for the voice of your soul,
that's whispering to you softly a promise of hope,
don't stay in the darkness come into the light,
where the sun is shining and the rose is in bloom.

Let a new day begin with a sunset of joy,
give thanks to the blessings that surround you today,
take a walk with your friend, sing your children to sleep,
don't surrender to sorrow but let love lead your way.

Sunday, 16 February 2014

Our Canada!

I'm proud to be living in the Great White North,
where we celebrate greatness July first, not fourth.
Where the maple leaf is our symbol of pride,
we would give our lives for the red and the white.

We are the friendliest folk you will ever know,
we like our hockey and we play in the snow.
If you have a Loonie, it's not crazy at all,
and a Toonie will get you a Tim's in the mall.

We grab our beer and go for a rip,
the bigger the wheels, the better the trip.
We take a vacation for hunting season
and help each other out for no special reason.

We love our country so free and strong,
where life is good and Winters are long.
Where we least forget and always remember,
our country's heroes on the 11th of November.

God bless Canada!

Wednesday, 5 February 2014

To my love on Valentine

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

Have you ever had a beautiful dream,
where all was good and love was the scene?
And then you wake up in an old, dreary morning,
the toast is burnt and the car shows a warning.

You make it  to work, put a smile on your face,
start today's big load in your small little space.
When the door opens up and your heart skips a beat,
when he looks in your eyes and knocks you off your feet.

That day was the day, when I woke up to a dream,
where live is good, and love is the scene.
That day was the day, when I met you, My Love,
and I'm eternally thankful to the giver above.

I love you!

Sunday, 8 December 2013

To my girl

I will keep you forever close to my heart,
even life's busy errands often keep us apart.

The memories we shared since the day we first met,
a moment of of wonder that I will never forget.

When I first took a glance at your beautiful face,
the prettiest girl and my own saving grace.

I wish to provide all your dreams and your wishes,
will always be waiting for my love and my kisses.

You're my beacon of love that lights up the night,
when my life seems dark, you're giving me light.

Your hand I will hold, I will always be near,
will always protect you everyday that I'm here.

Always know I'll be where ever you go,
I will love you much more than you'll ever know.

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

Sunday, 1 December 2013

Even though I didn't know you yesterday,
you gave me the hope to continue my journey,
that eventually lead me straight into your arms.

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I glance outside at the blanket of snow,
while the fire is crackling with a soothing glow.
The tree is dressed up, the stockings are hung,
sharing tales of good tidings from the old and young.

The season's peace has spread through our hearts,
Christmas arrives, the season's hurry departs.
Love is hovering in every room of our home,
the family is gathered, no one is alone!

We all remember past Christmas nights,
the laughter, the joy beneath shimmering lights,
with loved ones that since has been taken away,
missed so deeply, but still in our hearts everyday!

The traditions we keep, the memories we treasure,
of the family we love and miss beyond measure.
May the season of peace find your heart's delight,
and bless you with memories of a Christmas so bright.

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

Tuesday, 24 September 2013

For You

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

I walked life's road of cobblestone,
gradually made peace with being alone.
Hopes of love were slowly melting away,
while praying for you each and every day.

I ran the errands of life's firm demands,
when secretly dreaming of holding your hands.
Envisioning a future with you by my side,
Wishing for you with my arms open wide.

Even though I've never met you before,
I knew you already before you walked through that door.
Your changed my life in a blink of an eye,
I'm convinced you fell through a hole in the sky!

Friday, 6 September 2013


by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

Pleasing nectar of the gods,
preservation of the mortal.
Gilded by the rays of the sun
vines ascending on glory's portal.

Heaven's tears metamorphosed,
by Divinity's only heir.
Companion of the comfort-less
Jacob's ladder in a pit of despair.

Divine, comfort-giving gold,
Intoxicating pleasure.
A mocker that leads astray the wise,
but still my savoured pleasure!

Sanitas Bona

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

Star at night

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

I'm a star floating in the celestial sphere,
pacing in circles of parallel planes.
glancing at bodies orbiting near,
crystallized in a charismatic frame.

My courage rests in an opaque state,
enclosed by a shell of might,   
I entrust my judgement to navigate
across starry skies at night.

Thursday, 29 August 2013

If Heaven only knew, how much Earth is missing you!

I walk along that mossy path, with a heart weighed down by sorrow.
I'm praying for the strength in me to find hope for tomorrow,
I hold my daughter's hand in mine while silently proceeding,
treading to your resting place where this mossy path is leading.

I feel a tear roll down my face, like many have been shed,
I glance upon my daughter's face and kiss her on the head.
Embraced by memories of Mother's love,
Missing her deeply, in dispute with above.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath,
thinking about this encounter with death,
How he stole in a moment our peace and delight
the derangements he left, like a thief in the night.

How life has changed in a blink of an eye,
how yesterday's laughter has now passed us by.
Like the flowers on the grave will wither away,
time will heal a bit more every day.

But the hole in my heart will never be filled,
We miss you mother, grandma and friend
The Angels will now take care of you
If Heaven only knew how much Earth is missing you!

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

R.I.P. Sandy

Friday, 16 August 2013

Goodbye my Daughter

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

A beautiful bird spreading it's wings,
leaving the nest, exploring new things,
singing a song of a future of light,
living in a dream not only at night.

Still soaring through the valley of youth, 
while constantly searching for the voice of truth,
looking ahead to the horizon afar,
never missing to wish upon a star.

How I wish you were little once more,
too tiny & short to walk out that door,
but now you're a lady all ready to go,
excited to leave, your cheeks are aglow.

Goodbye my sweetheart, I will try not to cry,
reminiscing on memories from a time gone by.
I love you my daughter, I'm so proud of you,
for being who you are and for what you do.

Don't forget where you came from,
because whatever may come,
I'll give you my love and wish you the best
and will always be waiting here in the nest.

Take care of yourself Sam!
I love you!

Saturday, 10 August 2013

Drip, Drop, Drip, Drop

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

Raindrops singing me a song, the wind is blowing, 
I don't feel alone
It's a song full of hope, full of calmness and peace,
I listened with a awwww with a cat on my feet

But all of a sudden,I heard no more rain,
but the gunshots out far, my heart filled with pain.
Where is my rain? 
Why is there war?
Where is the hope that once was not far?

Why can't there be news, that countries agreed,
that for every weapon a needy they'll feed.
Where we hold hands in union, with candles in our hand,
to remember the ones that kept peace in this Land.

Let judgement be spoken, like you were on trial,
and let others be right, once in a while.
Love your neighbours even so they are rather bizarre,
Love your children, of course, because that's who you are!

Sunday, 18 November 2012

Every Day

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne, 2012

Live every day like it would be your last,
leave yesterday's trouble be in the past.
Keep your eyes focused on the road that's ahead,
don't ever give up but keep walking instead.

Love every day unconditionally and true, 
because what you give out always comes back to you.
Never put your head to rest when you're mad,
but ask for forgiveness before going to bed.

Hope every day that you get one more chance,
to talk to your mother while holding her hand.
Help out your Vater without a delay,
because the one that giveth can taketh away!

And when your time comes I hope you can say:
I'd live my life the very same way.
I'd count the blessings each and every day,
not the once I received but the ones I gave away.
(added this August 2013)

Monday, 12 November 2012


5 medium size Red Delicious Apples
8 marshmallows cut in little cubes (I used a pair of scissors dedicated for cooking)
4 tablespoons of peanut butter
3 tablespoons of shredded coconut
3 tablespoons of brown sugar
1 tablespoon of white sugar
1/4 teaspoon of cinnamon
1/4 teaspoon of ground muscat
Chocolate syrup and some shredded coconut to decorate

If we all would focus in on our very own actions with the same set of binoculars that we use to judge others,  we would all be seeing a lot clearer!

Sunday, 11 November 2012

Quick and delicious Meatballs with Pineapple and Onion Gravy

This is a great dish for the Mom on the go.  Anyone can prepare this mouthwatering, hearty dish in record time. Served on a bed of Spaghetti it will have you family ask for seconds.

1 bag of thawed precooked Swedish meat balls
2 tablespoons of olive oil
2 small onions, cut in half and sliced thinly
2 more tablespoons of olive oil
1 pinch of salt
1 can (398 ml) of  pineapple cut in pieces (keep the juice)
4 tablespoons of red wine vinegar
4 tablespoons of brown sugar
1/4 teaspoon of chili powder
1/4 teaspoon of fresh ground pepper
1/4 teaspoon of curry
1/2 of pineapple juice
3 teaspoons of flour
2 cups of cold water
1 teaspoon of beef broth concentrate

1 tablespoon of white wine

1 teaspoon of cream cheese 


-Heat up the olive oil in a frying pan and add the meatballs, cook them on medium-low heat while preparing the gravy


-Fry the onions with the oil in a large frying pan on medium heat
-Add salt, pineapple, brown sugar and spices, steering constantly
-Add pineapple juice
-Stir flour into the cold water and mix until there are no clumps
-Whisk the flour water mixture into the pan and keep steering 
-Add beef broth and white wine
-Turn up heat to medium-high, continually whisking for approx. 2 more minutes to make sure that there are no clumps 
-Add cream cheese and continue stirring until it's blended into the gravy
-Taste test and season with salt and pepper as needed
-Add the meat balls and serve with spaghetti

“Miracles are like meatballs, because nobody can exactly agree on what they are made of, where they come from, or how often they should appear.”   
Lemony Snicket

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Delicious Cream Cheese and Onion Dip

This is a wonderful dip that is very easy to prepare and gets everyone's taste buds dancing. The caramelized onions give the dip just the perfect amount of sweetness without adding any sugar.  This is one of our family feel-good  favors.  Weather your hosting an elegant Christmas Gathering or sitting back for Hockey Night in Canada, this dish will make it a success!
I have a dip for you!

1/2 large Spanish onion diced
2 tablespoons of olive oil
1 pinch of salt
200 g cream cheese (left out at room temperature for 30 minutes)
4 tablespoons of sour cream
2 tablespoons of whipped dressing
2 tablespoons of milk
1/2 tablespoon of beef broth concentrate
1/4 teaspoon of salt 
1/4 teaspoon of freshly ground pepper
1/4 teaspoon of Italian seasoning
3 tablespoons of bacon bits 


Caramelizing the onions:
-Heat frying pan over medium-high heat
-Add the onions and a pinch of salt
-Sauté for about 10 minutes and then reduce to medium heat
-Cook and stir often for another 15 minutes or until onions are golden brown and caramelized
-Remove onions from pan to cool

-Combine cream cheese, sour cream, whipped dressing, milk, beef broth concentrate, salt,pepper and Italian Seasoning with the electric mixer until fully combined and smooth

-Add onions and bacon bits (save a small amount of each to garnish)
-Arrange in dipping bowl, top with the spared onions and bacon bits
-Serve with chips or baked flour tortillas.
Bon Appétit Jessica!
Enjoy the pleasure of cooking as much as savoring the created dish!

Thank you for stopping by.  I'm a single  Mom of three and live in a small idyllic country setting in Canada.  The Village of Tracy has a population of over 600 people.  Growing up in Europe, I was used to a much faster live style, but now I enjoy the more nonchalant way of  Canadian living.  I love this country, not so much for his long and what seem to be endless winters, but for its wonderful people, places and opportunities that can put a smile on your face. 
"When I'm in Canada, I feel this is what the world should be like."  
Jane Fonda

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